The last day and the last hour in Jan, 2009

Now is 23:20hrs, Jan 31, 2009. The time is flying. The Jan. is gone.

Today Dad reminded mom that yesterday was our the 8th Anniversary date. However Mom already forgot. I know the life changed so much with your arrival. It feels like Emma is all my life for now. I have forgotten this important date. We are so happy to have you - Emma after our seven years' marriage.

Today is the two years Anniversary date after we bought this house. We still can clearly remember how excited after we moved to the new home. Two years later, we got more excited to have you - Emma. You gave us and your grandma so much fun and happiness.

Okay, mom has to go to bed as you still can't sleep through the night yet. Mom has to be ready to get up during the night to look after you.

Mom
23:30, Jan 31, 2009

Emma's Happy Life Stories - The 1st professional Album

Mom finally finished the 1st professional album for you. The name is Emma's Happy Life Stories. Mom went through thousands of pictures took from your born to the ninth month old, and picked up some good ones and put them together to build a professional print album in the Shutterfly. I am so excited and can't wait to see the album. It will took about 10 days to arrive here. It will be a very nice gift for you. When you grow up and look at these pictures, you will love them! Your mom, dad and grandparents love you so much. All these pictures are the beautiful memories.

Mom

Emma slept through the night

Mom had cough and sore throat since Jan 11th. It was very difficult to control the cough while nursing EMMA especially during the night nursing. Jan.15th or Jan. 16th, Mom didn't feel well due to the cold so Mom had a little medicine. In the next day early morning around 6:00am, when I heard EMMA's voice from the monitor, I just realized that I didn't get up during the night! What a good baby. You knew your mom was sick so you let her had a good rest. And same amazing good sleep happened in the next day! Now it has been for a about 4 nights! I am so proud of you - EMMA. I have been looking forward to seeing you sleep through the night for almost 10 months! Hope you will continually doing better.

Mom is working on searching the babysitter in these days. It not easy for a parent to send out the young baby to an unfamiliar people. There will be so much trust in it. Now I can understand that why Quency and her husband can stay with their children till their older. I believe it is a fun time to see the baby grow up.

Today Emma looks like want to talk more and really aloud. With grandma and your mom and dad's love and care, Emma eats well, sleep well and play well. She is such a happy baby. We almost don't see her cranky time at all. Even the picky grandma said Emma is an easy baby :)

To be a parents, it is a great feeling that your baby is tie with you tightly. 人生中需要有你牵挂的人，也要被别人牵挂着。这是一种幸福。

Jan. 18 2009 Emma starts to pick up food and put food in her mouth by herself

to be continued

Jan. 14, 2009 Emma starts to roll over fully by herself

to be continued

2008年产假里最后4个月的生活

自从9月份爸爸得知去KANSAS STATE UNIVERSITY面试的消息后，后面的四个月喜忧各半，生活与思路一直处于矛盾之中。主要是TN的不确定性，妈妈的发展问题，这四个月以来，妈妈在家里与小EMMA的日子也过得不是很安定。几乎时时都在考虑这事情的得与失。但是始终没有答案，也没有人能说得清，要成功总有风险，有风险不意味着一定能成功。趁今天妈妈没午睡，简单说说和小EMMA的每日例行生活留个纪念。

9月份正是小EMMA进入第五个月，晚上睡觉好多了，起来一次基本就可以，所以我的状态也恢复了不少。

早晨7：30AM -8：00AM，MONITOR 里有了动静，EMMA 睡醒后在床上玩玩自己的小手，哼哼唧唧开始了一天的生活，她也不哭不闹，真是心疼妈妈，让妈妈多睡一小会。

8：15AM 左右，走进小EMMA房间，EMMA一见我立即又舞小手又高兴地笑着，妈妈先给EMMA问好，晚上睡得好吗？然后在红扑扑的小脸蛋上亲一下，接下来给小EMMA喂奶，她每次都食欲巨佳，张着大嘴扑上来就呼哧呼哧得吃得很香，然后她通常在吃完一边奶后会拉巴巴，然后给她换下一个晚上重重的尿布，再继续喂另一边奶。当她吃饱后会心满意足地转抬起头朝我笑笑，然后我就把她抱起来拍拍咯，唱个小曲給她听。早晨的EMMA心情好，充满好奇心，东看西看，这个房间怎么也看不够。

9：15AM 左右，把EMMA放回小床，打开床上的小音乐盒，她会看着转动的小熊呵呵地笑。然后拿2个小毛毛玩具给她，再打开CD的儿歌，这样妈妈就可以离开一会儿了.EMMA表现很好，看着我出门，然后盯着门口等一会儿，还不见妈妈回来就自己玩玩具了。多乖的女儿呀！

9：30AM, 妈妈开始洗漱整理房间吃早饭
10：00AM左右，妈妈或姥姥上去给EMMA穿衣开始一天的生活。第六个月开始固体后，这是吃早餐的时间。EMMA胃口很好，吃饭也乖，又快又好。

10：30AM: EMMA的娱乐时间，有时妈妈姥姥陪着玩，有时自娱自乐。妈妈利用这段时间赶紧研究美国的搬家问题。积极与各方联系，银行，搬家公司，卖方事宜，各项政策，心里象上了弦一样，总想抓紧时间做好一切的准备，尽可能为搬家或做最终决定打好铺垫，这段时间心里却是象长了茅草，和小EMMA玩也是心事重重。

11:30AM: 喂奶，EMMA通常小睡一会儿，有时姥姥抱着睡会儿。

13：00 : 妈妈和姥姥吃饭，EMMA自己玩玩或看着我们吃饭

13：30 -14：00： 给EMMA换尿布，妈妈和EMMA一起睡午觉，这是妈妈最珍爱的一段时光，看着身边EMMA熟睡的可人样子，真想在家里陪伴她。长长黑黑的睫毛，翘翘的小鼻子，粉扑扑的小脸蛋，红润的小嘴，轻轻的呼吸，我怎么看也看不够。然后脑海中还是不断的想着搬家的事情，然后妈妈就昏昏地睡着了。

15：00： 心里有时，不能睡得太踏实，妈妈蹑手蹑脚地起床，然后还是上网或差资料，联系一些事情，这段时间得亏有姥姥在，真是帮了不少忙，否则做饭还是很花时间的。

16：30: EMMA醒来，赶快上去喂奶，有时又拉一次巴巴，EMMA喜欢在吃奶时拉巴巴，也许是比较放松吧。吃好奶，换好尿布，抱着EMMA读书，EMMA很喜欢看书也喜欢啃书，很快就会翻页，很重的书，她也抱得动。

17：15-17：30： 爸爸回来了，

18：00： 大人们吃饭

18：30： EMMA吃饭

19：30： EMMA洗澡

20：00-20：30： 妈妈抱着EMMA读个小故事，喂奶，哄睡觉

21：00： 妈妈可以暂时有点自己的时间了，和爸爸不停地商议搬家的事情，丝毫不敢怠慢。

23：00： 爸爸妈妈睡觉，床头不停地反复考虑美国工作的事情

02：00 -03：00： MONITOR里传出EMMA哼唧的声音，妈妈迷迷糊糊地起床喂奶，看着怀里熟睡的宝宝，心里经常在权衡搬家的事情。有时在想现在为什么这么优柔寡断，从前的魄力都到哪去了呢？人在选择面前会这么困难吗？

好了，宝宝午睡醒来了，妈妈得赶紧上去看你了，就写到这里吧。

妈妈

2009年里我们的第一个决定

2009年1月7日下午2点15分，爸爸和妈妈经过四个月的前思后想，反复斟酌，我们决定爸爸放弃这个去美国工作的机会。我知道爸爸心里一定有遗憾，这是他等待了很久的一个契机。但是由于考虑到家庭的稳定性，TN从长远看存在的风险，我们决定先以在加拿大发展为主。只要爸爸妈妈一起继续不懈努力，相信更合适的机会一定会出现。唯一的问题是可能要委屈小EMMA你了，过了产假，也许妈妈不能亲自日夜陪伴你更长的时间了。希望我们能有两全其美的办法把你好好地安置。

既然这是我们的最终决定，我们就不能再后悔什么。我相信什么样的生活取决于什么样的生活态度。我知道接下来的日子里我们会有不满意，工作的繁忙与兼顾家庭的矛盾，也许会有新的郁闷，但是所有的这些困难都是常人所需面对的，我们既然决定留在这里做能驾驭生活的人，就一定会克服这些困难给小EMMA一个幸福快乐的童年时光，同时也给我们自己一小段平静的时光，已备来日再战。

妈妈

2008年的生病记录

1.Emma的红屁股

Diaper Rash and Yeast Fungi

2.Emma的小花脸，并且头顶有象癣一样的spots

Draw and Craddle ???

3.Emma5，6天不拉粑粑，并且拉的粑粑很干

开始吃固体食物

4.Emma发烧一天

5.Emma拉稀半个月,又一次红屁股

Viral infection